Move along.

Too many songs to put up for this one folks, but this one won.

Life is a really crazy thing. People come in and out of it, sometimes for the better sometimes not. Either they leave out of their choice or because you leave them, but neither one is easy. Lately I've looked back at who has come and gone, who has stuck it out for years with me and I realize how much I take for granted. A split-second decision can tear you away from one you love most, or it can be a slow process you don't even notice is happening until you wake up and see what you lost. I know people say all the time that you need to let others know if you love them and how much you do constantly because you don't know what life will bring, what can change and how quickly. Then theres the whole 'you don't know what you've got til it's gone' type of thing. All of which is truthful it just kills when it's absolutely applicable to you.

Sometimes I feel like I love too much, I care too much, I put too much of myself out there which makes me so vulnerable, but I don't  know how to be any different. Sometimes I feel like I can't win, at anything, but I hope one day that'll change. Sometimes I wish I could just leave everything behind for a day and live like nothing that is bugging me matters, but my mind is too loud I could never do it.


Now all of you are probably worried that I'm all suicidal from this post plus my facebook statuses but I'm here to defend myself. Yes, I'm sad- no I don't really want to talk about it though. Music is the way I cope so all of those statuses were me listening to something that struck me and I thought I'd share it with the world. My blog is an out pouring of thoughts all splattered on to the computer screen- kind of like a journal but one that I don't mind sharing with people because maybe what I feel or say can let others know they're not alone and can see what I do with it. Not saying I write this stuff to inspire people or be a psychiatrist.. Although I did get an A in my Psych 111 Class last semester- Obviously means I'm certified to diagnose and help... Yeah right. 


Spam of cool tumblr findings. Go:

Always love, never hold back. Always put a smile on your face. Always pay attention to the little things that make you love someone the most, that sets them apart from the rest, and don't ever hesitate to tell that person what they are because it shows how much you're crazy about them. 

Much loves.

Rinnie-rinster.

Life.

I'm pretty sure this has been the longest week of my life, for realz. Here's what I'm jammin to:

I only know that I belong where you are.

First things first, Happy Belated Mother's Day to my Mama. She's incredible and I love her to death. We go on really fun trips together, she makes me really good food and makes fun of me for being a nerd. I guess you could say I like her... a little ;) <33

Grand Cayman- lovelovelove.

Speaking of Mothers- I had to play mom this week. Lets just say I don't want to have kids ANYTIME soon. I mean, I love them, but no. Nannying is the best summer job ever and I love it- this week was just insane. I watched the regular kiddos from 9-5 and then was Mom to a couple of kids I used to babysit a while back. Interestingly enough no one was killed in the duration of my 'Mom-ness.' Luckily next week I don't work as much because I don't know if I have a threshold of how much I can handle my job but I'm pretty sure I was right near it. Nevertheless, it was way fun and I don't mind the money that came with it too. 


This week I've sucked at: sleeping at a decent time, waking up with time to get ready, coping with feelings, etc. Thus you can see it was great. 


Not going to complain any longer. I should be asleep, but obviously, as read in the last paragraph, it is something I suck at. I'm just up cleaning my room, thinking, doing everything that shouldn't be done instead of sleeping.


Welp, came across this on tumblr and it made me think..

I don't think I can honestly say I know what being completely fearless feels like. It's like I've always been afraid of something whether big or small. I wish I was fearless- I would be a completely different person in a completely different place. 


(Insert the regular I miss certain people and need them in my life here statements plus pictures which would just take too much effort for the amount of energy I have right now but this is what I have to say.. )

I should go do something productive, that'd be a good thing. oh gosh.


Much loves.
Rinnie-rinster.

I just liked this.